22 September 2016

My Declaration

I declare that God is bringing about new seasons of growth. I will not get stagnant and hold onto the old. I will be open to change knowing that God has something better in front of me. New doors of opportunity, new relationships, and new levels of favour are in my future. This is my declaration.

A new season. A new chapter.
Like many people, I'm sure, I do not deal well with change. I avoid it, I push it far away and when it is too close to run away from, I deny that it's happening. If I could stay a five year old, carefree little girl forever, I probably would - because it's safe. It's inside my comfort zone.

Yet, over the last year I have made decisions, committed actions that are far away from the girl I was dreamt of becoming. I was so scared to take charge, too scared to listen to God for fear of having to leap and become uncomfortable. So, I started down a path towards a woman I never want to be.

So with the introduction of fall, I'm going to attempt to embrace change.
Will it be easy? Uh...NO.
Will it be worth it? I certainly hope so.
I am going to embrace change in every aspect of my life, whenever it may arise. I am going to listen to God, for he knows which path leads me to the best future. Most of all, regardless of whether I'm climbing up the mountain or feeling on top, I will love myself and the life I have been given.

I want this blog to be a place to document change - lifestyle change, body image change, career change, relationship change, whatever it may be. I want every post to be a reflection of my journey and an encouragement to those who read it.

Change is happening and I'm ready to take it on.

13 September 2016

A Change in the Weather.

It's been days,
weeks even.
...and I'm still unsure of where to begin.

I continue to type words and delete them. Nothing seeming quite right, adequate to describe how I am feeling in my mind and heart at this very moment. I really thought that as I grew, with each passing year, the hurt would lessen and the trials would be easier to face. This is not the case. With each step forward, I feel pulled back and all I want is to feel stable, to feel independent, to feel content.

Don't get me wrong, I am beyond blessed with the friends and family who protect me with their love every single day. They are the ones who insist I put one foot in front of the other, but catch me when I happen to fall. They are the ones I owe my glimmer of happiness and hope to.

...and they're the ones who will complete this post.
To be honest, there are no words for how I feel. The pit in my stomach, the disbelief I have in my future, but with every worry, every negative thought, they have uplifting words and so I'd like to share those with you. Each one of these words has dropped a joyful tear from my eye, emptied the pit for a moment or encouraged a giggle. These words have gotten me - and will continue to get me - through each day.

"No person should ever be the thing to make you whole...you have to have that fullness first before anything will ever work. Lonely is ok. Be lonely! It's just a feeling and you'll learn it doesn't have the power you think it does."


"Change is scary and it can be good...but change for the sake of change never pays back."


"Love yourself, enjoy your company...You have so much more to offer the world than just that...Rarely do good people not find their match."


They are amazing people and I am so blessed to have them in my life. Each one that I love is in my heart for a special reason and I hope to never, ever lose that. I have no idea what tomorrow holds, or where I will be an hour from now, or what I might write about next time, but I know that I'll be loved.

...and I guess that's half the battle.

15 August 2016

Island Vacation

Take Vacations.

Go as many places as you can.

You can always make money.

You can't always make memories.

A few weeks ago, my parents, my nephew and I went on a little island vacation to stay with my sister and her boyfriend. Prince Edward Island is peaceful and magical, especially when you get to wake up and drink coffee as you stare out into acres and acres of farmland.

With a week full of family - including a day trip to Halifax - I now feel like my summer is complete.
...is it bad that I'm ready for sweater weather?
But first, more pictures!